Hate me!  I’m worthy of nothing more.

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Suffering from clinical depression, I had low self-esteem, was self-loathing, fatigued, apathetic and suicidal. Everything seemed pointless and I felt undeserving of anything good. This worthlessness intermingled with social anxiety contributed to a lengthy absence of life. Plagued with a constant anger and a persistent longing for death I was left feeling exhausted and defeated. This illness has shaped my personality. My lifestyle nurtured it. By its extended habit, depression has become my friend.

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These works are reflective of my thoughts, emotions and experiences with mental illness. These mixed media drawings explore the subjects of Depression, Anxiety and Suicide using inspiration concurrently from historical, cultural and personal research.

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Creating art when dealing with unexpressed emotions is therapeutic. It gives relief to those issues once they are externalised. Breaking down complex thoughts and reassembling them into simplistic symbols and narratives provides a sense of closure. By revisiting memories of darker times and investigating the emotions and ideas inherent of a depressed state, I am able to comprehend and accept the past and examine the changes experienced between then and now.